Now, I know every child has their moments, and all go through a tantrum phase, but if you've not seen a full on Autistic toddler tantrum, you cannot possibly imagine what I'm even talking about. I mention this because every time I talk about it to anyone I feel like eyes are rolling at me on the inside, like, oh please, all kids throw tantrums, or I get the "I know what you mean, my kid throws tantrums all the time", but see I've seen other peoples' kids throw tantrums, and trust me when I say, unless you have or have been around a child with Autism, you have No.Idea.
Up until now her tantrums have been manageable I guess you could say. We do on occasion (okay daily) get kicked, slapped, or scratched. And you'd be surprised how strong this child is. Now she doesn't mean to be bad, she doesn't understand, she just cannot communicate, and it pisses her off, and she lashes out when we offer the wrong solution to her mystery problem. While it is an inconvenience now, it is, as I said, manageable. But for how long?
She is already incredibly strong. And growing like a weed. And she clearly has her father's tall gene. Those who know me know I'm a fair bit on the vertically challenged side. She will be bigger than me one day. What happens then? Is she going to throw these tantrums forever? Will there come a time when I am afraid of my own child? I know that I will never give up on her, I will always be there for her, no matter what, but please don't let it be so difficult forever. Someone please tell me it gets better with age and not worse...
This is just a thought that has been plaguing me lately. What am I going to do? I am her mother, and I will always take care of her, but what happens when I can't? Anyone with experience, with older children, please shine some light my way, share some wisdom, tell me what my future might hold?